Infertility · Motherhood · TTC Baby #2

Here’s to doubled estrogen medication {And explosive bathroom experiences}

I would love to romanticize all aspects of this journey and hold on tight to the beautiful moments of preparing my body for a baby. But, let’s be honest folks, there are crappy moments. Crappy aspects. Crappy hormones.

And, I don’t use that word lightly.

Take for example, my recent bathroom habits. The additional estrogen (Estradiol vaginal suppository form) in my symptom encourages food to move straight through me. And, I mean STRAIGHT through me. I’ve been waking up with the “urge” – to put it mildly – at 5 am, and then again at 6:30 am, and then throughout the day, as I eat and “function.” What a joy.

Abby would like to point out that most nice neighborhoods in Denver don’t encourage toilets on their front lawns. Yet, Abby is willing to give this one a try and “push” πŸ™‚

But, the upside is that I’m detoxing for pregnancy πŸ™‚ And, the additional progesterone suppositories and injections that begin in the next week will have me loudly complaining of the opposite problem. Oh, do I have horrific memories of the constipation…

But, I digress.

These are not easy days, but I’m holding onto the treasured moments with family (who I’m staying with in Houston during this process) and to future dreams of this fierce little lion baby. I feel ridiculously, miraculously calm. Almost matter of fact. I’m about to be pregnant again. Even if for only a couple of weeks. And, I plan on savoring those moments with this baby. Hoping for a lifetime of them. Willing to give thanks even if that is not so. IMG_6493.JPG

I am brave. This baby is brave. My family is brave. And the journey isn’t over.

Meanwhile, I need to stock up on soft toilet paper πŸ˜‰


4 thoughts on “Here’s to doubled estrogen medication {And explosive bathroom experiences}

  1. Do you have a FB? I wanted to ask what part of Houston you are staying in since I live in Houston as well:)
    The toilet picture is so funny- I think Jacob would probably want to give it a “push” too haha. He insists on flushing the toilet when I go even before I’m done and gets mad when I don’t let him do it again. Toddlers -_- gotta love them ❀
    I hope your tummy issues start getting better!

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