Infertility · Prayers · TTC Baby #2

Knowing this day would come {And choosing to hope}

When I wrote yesterday’s post, I knew my heart would not be satisfied with Netflix and ice cream for long. I knew my tired body would become what this Lion Baby needs. For, I am brave. Brave enough to whisper my fears. Brave enough to reach out with what terrifies me. Brave enough to utter… Continue reading Knowing this day would come {And choosing to hope}

Infertility · Motherhood · Prayers · Remedies · TTC Baby #2

Bravely Breaking the Silence {TTC Baby #2}

Years ago I wrote a poem that narrated both my brokenness and my healing. And, tonight, I’m drawn back to the emotions that flowed then. That flow now. ~~~ Illuminating. Probing. Unburying. Dawn streaks across the sky. I whimper beneath a warming ray. Afraid to thaw – afraid to let my emotions cry.   Whoosh.… Continue reading Bravely Breaking the Silence {TTC Baby #2}

Infertility · Love letters to Abby · Motherhood · Prayers

This is NOT the update that I wanted to write {But something just as precious}

I missed writing my 10-month update. On March 4, I should be writing Abby’s 11-month update. And, while the next several weeks promise to be insanely busy, I have faith that I will write…eventually. That’s how I process stress and life. That’s how I keep time, record memories, emerge from the fog that is early… Continue reading This is NOT the update that I wanted to write {But something just as precious}

Motherhood · Prayers

More Than a Baby Update {The Stirrings of My Tired Heart}

In the jumble of diaper blowouts and feedings every 2-3 hours…in the confusion of swaddle or no swaddle, schedule or no schedule…in the tears of long nights and in the multiple coffee cups of early mornings…my soul is stretching. My tired heart is stirring with things old and things new, emotions welcome and emotions feared,… Continue reading More Than a Baby Update {The Stirrings of My Tired Heart}

Prayers · Pregnancy

Keep Doing What You’re Doing {I think she meant prayer}

This weekend I am planning a nice, long post about the accomplishment of reaching 30 weeks of pregnancy! Woohoo! But, as tomorrow is a long day of in-service meetings (and Valentine’s), a quick update is in order tonight. Abigail is doing wonderfully! Is she small? Yes. Is she still as happy as a clam? Absolutely. The specialist gave… Continue reading Keep Doing What You’re Doing {I think she meant prayer}