In my personal blog this morning, reflections on the spiritual side of this journey poured out (see “Always. Forever. {All of the time}”). Still, I shrink from sharing everything with an audience so diverse. And, so, some of the details are reserved for this place, this safety net provided by anonymity and like-minded readers. The… Continue reading And the timeline continues
I lay on the table, feet up in stirrups, watching the nurse’s face grow more concerned. It was early Friday morning, and I was nervous just considering the IUI procedure that was about to occur. However, as she examined the ultrasound screen, trepidation filled my belly. On Wednesday, we had been given the instructions to… Continue reading The worst case scenario
***Originally posted this evening on my personal blog http://acupofbliss.wordpress.com/2012/09/13/bits-of-this-and-a-lot-of-that/ ~~~ Words compete with thoughts that compete with dreams that compete with memories that compete with prayers. Bits and pieces of the past several weeks float to the surface, fighting to be discussed, analyzed, processed through, evaluated. Yet, despite the cacophony of events and emotions surging forward, I’ve… Continue reading Bits of this and a lot of that
On a positive note… I received a 100% on my graduate Capstone and have now officially completed my master’s degree. Seventh graders will be arriving in my classroom in several days, and I am NOT in a state of craziness (miracle of miracles). Week-long get-away in Florida was wonderful emotionally and physically. Worked up the… Continue reading Both sides of the coin
Just when I thought I would make it through this week without a breakdown, I had to wake up this morning. Arguably, I should just go back to bed. I have to stop and think to figure out what cycle day this is…Day 18 I believe. Besides a dull ache on my left side (which… Continue reading Meaningless Smiley Faces
I can’t yet put into words what I feel the Holy Spirit is teaching me about faith. What I do know, however, is that I have demonstrated very little over the past year or so. Honestly, I am afraid that these treatments won’t work, that I won’t get pregnant, and that I will be disappointed again. Fear… Continue reading What I’m learning besides BBT
Because of faith also Sarah herself received physical power to conceive a child, even when she was long past the age for it, because she considered [God] Who had given her the promise to be reliable and trustworthy and true to His word. Hebrews 11:11 AMP This was perhaps the third of many versions of this verse that I… Continue reading And so I rest in faithfulness
Today is Day 1 of a Cycle that I pray ends in a miracle. Months of drugs have been leading up to this fourth trial run of TTC with Clomid. Excitement fills me. Bubbles up, despite the cramps currently residing in my abdomen. It’s been a long month. More correctly, it has been 123 days.… Continue reading Walking in Who I Am. A Mommy.
For the past two weeks, everywhere I go I seem to see twins. I’ve found myself trying to figure out how I am going to handle two crying babies, two busy toddlers, two mouths to feed at once. But, do you want to know the funniest part of the situation? I’m still not pregnant. Still… Continue reading I see twins
An empty, blue vitamin container sitting next to my computer indicates that I’ve taken my nutrients for the morning, as well as a small white pill that often makes me desire to throw up. Pleasant, right? In between bites of breakfast and sips of black tea, I swallowed them . . . calcium, magnesium, multi, prebiotics,… Continue reading Struggling with dreams
Tear Drops Falling 