I know…it’s crazy…but I can’t help myself. I took pregnancy tests both yesterday morning and today. Crazy. I know. Especially since they were stark white during the “appropriate” testing limit. Nothing. Nada. But…30 minutes later this morning after my shower there is a definite “blurry” second pink line. Very faint. I can’t even capture it… Continue reading 5dp5dt
Today I received an alert on my phone that I am entering week 4 of pregnancy. I smiled, then dismissed the notification. Today may only last the next 48 hours. By this time tomorrow night, it might be all over. A negative beta is possible. Still, I cling to hope. I’m calm. Impatient, yes, but… Continue reading One day till Beta! {8dp5dt}
At this point in my cycle, I know that some women begin to see positives on HPTs. Some women experience implantation cramping and implantation spotting. I know that others experience sharp pulling pains and are already nauseous. Not me. I feel right as rain. I had to resist the urge to wake up and go… Continue reading 6dp5dt {As days go by}
I’ve laid around the kitchen. I’ve sat in dining room chairs. I’ve propped myself up on pillows on the couch. I’ve cuddled in bed. I walked outside briefly to get ice cream an hour ago, as my monumental first time out of doors since Wednesday’s transfer. Basically, I haven’t moved much. It is rather demoralizing,… Continue reading 2dp5dt {from a prostrate position somewhere}
Lunch break at work. I’m slightly bloated, constipated, tired, and (despite all of those symptoms) hungry. Why? I’m trying to not read too much into how I feel or don’t feel. Yes I’m tired. No I don’t feel pregnant…at all. After three BFNs this weekend, including an FRER at 9 dp5dt (14dpo), I’m not testing… Continue reading 10dp5dt {Giving it a rest}
8dp5dt Negative pregnancy test. Freak out. Break down. Cry. Picking up the pieces. Praying for a miracle. Hope flutters. “I will dwell in possibility.” ~Kelly Rae Roberts
I stare at the test strip in every possible light and angle, hoping to see even a faint line darken its white surface. Nothing. For the second day in a row. I’m now 8 days past my five-day transfer and 13 days past “ovulation.” I’m certainly not giving up hope yet. But, my heart hurts.… Continue reading Second negative
Just an inkling of the excitement that COULD be my future months niggled at my heart today, as I was forced to say, “No, I can’t run that 10K on October 27.” A smile worked its way across my lips, as I hit “Send” on my phone and waited for my co-runner’s text response. “Don’t… Continue reading Preparations. Maybe soon.
Tear Drops Falling 