I’ve not fallen off the face of the map, but I’ve almost found myself in the hospital for dehydration due to morning sickness with a (presumed) combined stomach bug. And, I haven’t felt like myself in over a month. Yes, I was sick when pregnant with my first. But, nothing like this. Nothing that transforms… Continue reading Long Overdue
There is a me-shaped imprint in my disheveled bed. A bed that I’ve been retreating into as much as possible for the past four days. Right on schedule on the first day of my sixth week pregnant, the nausea has hit and hit hard. The first day, I made it through a workout and walk… Continue reading Finding My Foundation & Just So Nauseous {6 Week Update}
The exhaustion this time around seems all-consuming. Perhaps my memory has grown foggy, but I feel like I’m so much more lethargic in early pregnancy than I was when pregnant with Abby. Perhaps it is because I’m chasing a two-year-old now. Or perhaps it is just because this season of our family’s life has a… Continue reading 5 Weeks, 2 Days {And I’m buying frozen meals}
*Warning: For those deep in the trenches of the infertility battle, this post may be hard to read as it references pregnancy success. Please feel free to come back when your heart is ready. I understand. I truly do.* I’ve needed to write this post for over a week now. But, I didn’t have words.… Continue reading My Little Lion Baby {Forever}
In summary, everything yesterday went smoothly with the embryo transfer and now all that is left is to navigate “resting” with a toddler while waiting for pregnancy test results in the next couple of weeks. Oh, yay, resting and taking a whole lot of meds. But, beyond the summary, the DETAILS of yesterday are what… Continue reading Lion Baby {And other FET updates}
When I wrote yesterday’s post, I knew my heart would not be satisfied with Netflix and ice cream for long. I knew my tired body would become what this Lion Baby needs. For, I am brave. Brave enough to whisper my fears. Brave enough to reach out with what terrifies me. Brave enough to utter… Continue reading Knowing this day would come {And choosing to hope}
I would rather just eat my outrageously rich coconut/almond ice cream and watch Netflix right now. Not write. Not process. Not face the fact that my body aches, is bloated, and hormonal, while my baby is not yet even inside. Two more days. I am stronger this time around. While I’ve felt “off” on the… Continue reading When embryo transfer is two days away {But the heart and body are over it}
I would love to romanticize all aspects of this journey and hold on tight to the beautiful moments of preparing my body for a baby. But, let’s be honest folks, there are crappy moments. Crappy aspects. Crappy hormones. And, I don’t use that word lightly. Take for example, my recent bathroom habits. The additional estrogen… Continue reading Here’s to doubled estrogen medication {And explosive bathroom experiences}
Dear Lion Baby, Today, I’m at the end of Day 1 of the 40 weeks of pregnancy that technically includes the two weeks before conception. Technically, I’m pregnant. Probably fitting too, since I had my first true hormonal meltdown this evening with an angry, ugly cry in front of less-than-understanding family. If only I had… Continue reading Pregnancy {And why WebMD makes me laugh}
While I have been quiet for the past week or so, it has not been because life has been slow or the days quiet. Rather, the past week has been a flurry of activity to wrap up all my doula client responsibilities in Colorado, situate our living arrangement so that I could be gone for… Continue reading Undress from the waist down {And other FET adventures}
Tear Drops Falling 